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Sat, Mar. 5th, 2005, 12:31 pm



Meeting up with Ryan at 4:20 pm.
I will be back from Indiana on the 26th.
I love Ryan and I am excited.
Bye fuckers.

Fri, Mar. 4th, 2005, 09:56 am



I have a different journal.
Comment and I'll add you there.
<3

Thu, Mar. 3rd, 2005, 08:48 am



I am ordering pizza online.
I moved back to Tacoma, well Parkland/Lakewood. Had to move out of my apartment in Seattle for Dylan to move in. Yeah, real gay.
I want Ryan to move here before my birthday in October.
I will be in Indiana Saturday.
What's not gay are the reunion shows here.
I love Seattle.
It'll be hard not living in a huge city and knowing my way around.
Running into friends walking downtown or going to shows.
I never had a home.
It's as close as to growing up in the same house with parents who are still together that I'll ever have.
And where all my friends grew up together with me, but it's close, and close is still more than the world to me.
It just fits and feels nice.
Something I have always wanted.
I am going to eat.

I love Ryan Dale Sheilds

Tue, Mar. 1st, 2005, 09:23 am





I love the husband.
I get to see him soon.
Guh!!!

Tue, Feb. 22nd, 2005, 12:03 am



1. Delete MySpace.

Accomplished.

I didn't delete it because I don't want to show my boyfriend off. That's retarded. I also hated the fact people think I talk shit about them on there. When I never written in my blog or mentioned someone's name besides Ryan.

I don't like lurkers either. It's just atleast on here I can restrict who sees what. And for my friends on there, they know how to get a hold of me. I don't need a MySpace to comment back and forth when we have messengers for that.

If someone wants to get to know my personal life, they can try to be my friend. Other then that, I don't think complete strangers or enemies should be allowed to see anything going on in my world. And that's the end.

Sun, Feb. 20th, 2005, 02:02 am
You get an F for effort.

No I don't think we'll ever meet again.
We give everything for nothing.
Make me an offer I can't refuse.
Give me a reason and I'll give you an excuse.


Thanks but no thanks.
God never did me any favors.

Fri, Feb. 18th, 2005, 03:13 pm




So here's the deal.
If you have something to say, log in in order to comment
This isn't second grade when we leave secret letters.
Let's grow up.
I already have cut the bullshit out of my life, so I intend on keeping it that way.
I hate to feel censored in a journal that is on the internet.
But why should I feel scared, or that I should restrict my thoughts?
I really don't care anymore.
This is where I type, and this is where you read.
The end.
Bye.

Sun, Jan. 9th, 2005, 05:05 pm
If you hate your friends..

All along
You wanted to see me fail
I'd never suspect you
In the middle of the circle
Hiding your cover

Does this city have enough
Air for both of us to breathe?
If it was up to you one of us would leave
I'm telling you there's no way it would be me

So talk yourself till your blue in the face
Cause someone always wants to listen to hate
It's just too bad you're so easy to ignore

So oh no, oh no,
Here comes the girl with the ice cream cone
Who says she didn't get
A scoop as big as mine
Does it hurt to force a smile to my face?
Does it burn to wish you were in another place?
I won't look to you anymore

So what are you saying tonight

Sun, Nov. 28th, 2004, 08:09 am
Gun in my mouth, I pray for sunshine.





[knives can only go so deep. you have penetrated the hardest heart and now i cant help but to return the favor xo]

Mon, Nov. 8th, 2004, 04:53 pm
I left my heart in x206x253x360x





Wow.

I honestly cannot believe how rapidly I have changed in four years.

This chapter of the most painful four years of my life has ended.

Leaving Bremerton, I left behind too much.

I would have done anything to leave this state.

I think a lot of you know that.

Tomorrow, is the beginning of the rest of my life.

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